Needlemouse

Thank you!

YMAI you only wanted to date someone because you wanted to fit in. (idk if this was already said or not)

I struggled to understand the difference between romantic attraction and still to some degree kinda do. But at the same time, idk. I relate to some experiences from others in articles when it came to romantic attraction, and I think I probably do experience it but there's more to it than that. Like I might fit under the aromantic spectrum, but I'm not sure. Labels are confusing, and I'm not going to stress it. So if it's okay, I'm just going to use the label aromantic for a bit. Until I can figure it out.

And though I identify as demiromantic and panromantic, there's a tad bit of confusion, not because of my identity, but because of a label someone introduced me to, and past experiences. So, I've questioned if I was on the aromantic spectrum. I've identified as aroace before quite a few times. I told my experiences to a cupioromantic person, and they said I might be post rubor aromantic. I looked up the label and the description for me perfectly. When I had crushes on people, I felt attraction, but it faded away once the excitement died down. It always seemed like I was really enjoying the idea of the sweet words, and actions in a relationship, but not actually the relationship itself? I must sound evil. I've mostly had crushes on friends. And as a kid, crushes were rare for me and I only wanted to date because I wanted to be like everyone else at that time. I'm in a happy relationship with my boyfriend, and want to marry him, and I'm pretty sure I still feel attraction to him. It's like a friendship, but more special than one. I've noted that I've noticed signs that can count as platonic from previous attractions. As a kid I hardly thought of marriage, but when I did, it's because of stereotypes, and I thought I was supposed to. I've struggled to tell apart platonic, queerplatonic, and romantic attraction in the past. Like it was a blur. What makes me think I'm in love with my boyfriend is wanting to spend time with him, be very affectionate towards him, being very excited when he comes online (we're long distance), wanting to marry him. I've fallen in love once before with a girl. The thing similar with her and my boyfriend is they both are really good, great people who are sweet. Qualities I like in my friends, but I like my bf, and liked my ex crush in a more special way. I became obsessed with/infatuated/hyperfixated with someone so idk if that counts.

Monster energy cans. Beinf a teen is confusing.

Breakin' dishes by Rihanna.

I feel like I'm just being a copy of my boyfriend and our friend, and others. I think I might be a trans boy, and I'm willing to ID as such, even if it's just an experiment. Am I copying them? Is it okay for me to ID this way? Idk I guess I just need reassurance.

Thank you! I'll definitely try this. After all it wouldn't be hurting anyone right?

I never thought this would actually happen but I've gone unlabeled for a long period of time. Still nothing. Still confused. Literally just feeling what I feel, wanting what I want and experiencing things. But god damn this is confusing. I want to present feminine, but also masc, but also both. I don't even know if I experience feminine gender identity now, despite wanting to be a demigirl. I like being told I look masculine, and androgyous though. Even if it's not true at all. Idk I've just gotten new experience after new experience. Nothing popped up or anything in my head. Still no click. I haven't bothered really trying to figure it out much anymore. But I'm still curious. And I don't think genderfluid fits completely. Maybe genderfaun? I don't know. Can I figure this out? I don't want to be fluid in gender. I want to be static. I don't get my own gender anymore. But that's fine. I'm trying to figure this out on my own, I really am. It's difficult. Next year marks it 4 years of questioning, I think? 3? 5? I lost track. I want to ask for help, just a little bit, but this is something I need to do on my own. Only I can figure this out, but I'm not very smart. I don't think I'm smart enough to do this on my own.

Yes-! PBM, want to do quads with me?

Fly.

Yes! >:3 TPBM would you like to be a silly little goose posting goofy goober cat memes on social media with me before bedtime?

Okay but like Velvet and Veneer were super iconic. I haven't even seen the movie yet, just some edits and shorts on YouTube, but my favorite part with them was the "stop attacking me" one. Poor Veneer. Just wanted to eat his cereal lol.

I’m offended by your signature.

GMFU by Odetari (w/ 6arelyhuman) (Sped up version)

(Tw and spoilers)

The feeling feels like I want to get as far away from the idea of me being that identity as possible. What makes it better is thinking of myself as something else. What makes it worse is thinking of myself as being genderfluid. But it's been a decent amount of time now, and I've gone without labels, because I'm unsure, and no labels fit me as of yet. I just feel like me. No strings attached. I guess it's pretty liberating. Labels put me under a lot of stress. I want a label, but at the same time I'm just fine without one. Recently, one of my favorite youtubers came out as a demiboy, after identifying as demigirl for some time, and I felt super happy for them, of course! And then I thought "I'm glad they figured out what they truly are. At least they'll know! And that's fine." Then I was thinking "what if I was in the same scenario, but the opposite. What if I find out I'm a demigirl. How funny would that be?" Trying to jinx myself, I guess, even though I know I'm not a demigirl. I guess part of me is still a bit desperate. You're right. I'm eager to explore my expression, pronouns, names, and other things. I'm eager to explore my gender identity, but at the same time it feels useless, since why even bother figuring it out? I'm still me, after all. I'll give the site and book a look. That is if my library has a copy. I like using any and all types of ways to express my gender identity. I'd like to have people think I'm a girl one minute, and a guy the next. Or just not being sure of what I am at all. What I mean is, I'd like to have people in a state of confusion when it comes to my expression. I don't like being confined to one gender identity, to the binary. Oddly enough, I'm not really into honorifics and pronouns sometimes, other times I am. And I could easily see a problem there. At least to people who wouldn't understand. After all honorifics are a way of communicating who one is, right? It actually varies on what makes me uncomfortable. It's just an "it depends" circumstance. I guess, either I still haven't learned my preferences on the small things like pronouns and such, due to trying to rush things, and never genuinely experimenting, or I'm just fluid that way. I've got a start for that path, I think. I know I prefer either feminine hair styles (like long hair, etc), and gender neutral haircuts (but honestly, why label things like haircuts??). I'm a big fan of short hair, but I could do just as fine with long hair. I really like clothes considered feminine, and I'm willing to experiment with masculine and gender neutral clothes too, even though I'm not too keen on the idea right now. Maybe even trying something different and mixing together clothes (like masculine and feminine clothing, or masc and neutral, or fem and neutral). I'm still experimenting on names. That one's a toughy, but I'll figure it out. I know I don't want masculine names. Neutral ones are fine, and I don't think feminine names are to my taste. I'd like really unconventional names. Pronouns? Sometimes i want to use she/they, other days he/him, they/them, he/they, neoprouns, and none. It's a changing thing. I believe due to rushing things however. I know that I can be alright with my body sometimes. What I'm going to say is gonna be weird, so please don't judge me. Sometimes I stare at my chest, and I'm like "oh I have boobs, okay then" and move on with my day. Other times I like having them. Same with my down below area, except I never like them. I'm fine with them sometimes, yes, but never like them. Sometimes I want a flat chest, and surgery for my down there bit. It changes/depends. But whatever I want at the moment is what I want. Sometimes I really like how feminine clothes extenuate my body. Other times I'm far from it. I don't know what body configuration means (;-;). As for my voice, I want an androgynous one. Strictly androgynous. I don't exactly mind my female one half the time, but I definitely want an androgynous voice. I agree, I'll figure things like this out through time, and not all at once. I know from my own experiences. (P.s. writing this made me realize something. Like a revelation. Lol. But I'm serious. My oblivious self didn't think to think that I'm feminine, and prefer to be feminine presenting. I also realized that I might be girlflux. That possibility sounds find to me, and I'm excited, and I hope that that's me! I'm going to look into it. Maybe I'm wrong? Who knows. Either way It's fine. And I for sure am going to experiment. Also, some of what I responded with made me think of other people's experiences. I'm pretty sure they were girlflux, but I cant remember.-

Oh, I've been criticized before. But that might?? play a role in it. But the idea in general of having a fluid gender is unappealing in itself.

I've come out as asexual, and aromantic (at the time I thought I was greyromantic or something, and just wanted to avoid any confusion). It hasn't really affected me at all. The only thing that has changed is my parents expectations, and knowledge. They perceive me as myself, and someone who doesn't feel that way. it was freeing, and good for me. It's affected my life in a positive way. I'm free to be myself and of the idea that I'd ever feel that way. So it definitely was for the better.

I assure you that it's not odd. I kind of relate to that. Personally, it makes me feel lived in, or experienced.

Anyone else have bad acne? Anyone else who likes their acne and wouldn't want to change the fact they have it because makes them feel like a teen boy/more like their teenage non-binary self? Anyone like having scratches or small minor injuries, and bruises without being insecure about them because it makes them feel, (this might not make an ounce of sense to others) authentic and cool?

I have been summoned. Anygays... Tie between Jax, Gangle, and Kinger. Because Jax is sassy abd funny sometimes. Gangle is adorable (nut I'm not a simp). Kinger os just... a favorite for me. :) My least favorite is .... Well I don't really have a least favorite. I ship no one. It just feels wrong. I don't like any of the ships. But if someone else wanted to ship them, then whatever. Iglf it's queerplatonically or platonically or sonething like that, then I'm all for it. Favorite part of the pilot?

So, I'm probably asexual, but I really want to identify as pansexual. The label is lovely. And I definitely want to experience sexual attraction. I know not finding someone hot doesn't necessarily mean you're asexual. Allosexuals don't have to find people hot, right? I really find comfort in the pansexual label, and I feel like I may have gotten it wrong about being asexual. But at the same time I feel like I don't fit in with being pansexual, and may be wrong to question if I am or not due to the fact I could possibly be asexual. Maybe I'm bisexual or gay? I kind of dig the bisexual label. So should I try it out? Yeah. I need a little encouragement or something.

I've been willing to date someone regardless of their gender before. Even before having the amount of dating experience I have, I thought it'd be possible for me to love someone regardless of gender, and I think that's true. I've loved and had crushes on boys, girls, anyone in between, or neither, or outside of that. I don't know, the concept of pansexuality and panromanticism is beautiful imo, just like any other romantic orientation. Unlike the idea of me being polyromantic, the idea of me being panromantic is a lot more comforting, and would be a lot better. It doesn't feel as forced as identifying as polyromantic does. I like the idea of me being able to love someone regardless of gender. And just for their personality. I love these wonderful people. One is questioning their gender, and I don't care what they are, I just love them. I don't care what the other's gender is, just that I love them. I don't care what someone's gender is. Just their personality. I fall in love with someone for their personality. So I guess this is my way of coming out. I'm panromantic, (and questioning pansexual)!